My soul senses collective emotional landscapes
sifting through centuries of consequences caused by colonization and slavery
the complex levels of trauma and healing are dizzying
the struggle seems stifling sometimes…
but thinking of the next generations gives me fuel to survive & fight on
and I push myself, to remind myself: it’s all about balance!
Not one extreme or the other, not up or down, right or left,
but staying centered within oneself
only then can we feel the invisible spider web connecting us all
theory is easier than practice though
and inevitable clashes of emotions, thoughts, experience will persist
but when I feel something triggering me to explode
deep breaths are an oxygen mask for my at-risk soul.